I still love Lucy very much

i love my wife <3

just because some whiny bitch may be in denial of liking her doesn’t mean she likes him back. That would be hilarious lmao

i still feel disgusting by what I feel but like
its good I’m protective of her? The guy seems like a red flag imo, he tries to scam people who desperately need money, he buys useless things when his abused mom desperately needs the money as his dad is an alcohol addict. His selfish ass doesn’t deserve someone with a important condition and trauma like Lucy

lucy means so much to me. I really don’t know what I’ll do if they do become canon or some shit but it’s pretty implied SHE KILLS HIS ASS due to the artwork where she’s playing a game of cards and has really good cards. And in Mafia, she mentions someone being USELESS and kills them. And the body oddly resembles the whiny bitches. It’s the same coat and body shape.

im trying my best to be positive about this I really don’t want her to be with him permanently (if she kills him LETS FUCKING GO) as that’s gonna fuck me up

As someone who recently discovered their aroace for real people but feel normal attraction towards fictional characters, i genuinely love Lucy. I have genuine feelings for her

if anyone mentions her and the whiny bitch being together I’m blocking you. Even as a joke. You can mention it if you have to mention it to comfort me

i feel like I got cheated but I feel better as i bullied the fucker with a friend and talked to like 3 people.

/neg /doingabitbetter /dissthismaninthecomments

Aye I’m getting really overwhelmed and burnout ain’t helping

having forgotten to do a singular page in French that was for homework (never knew btw) made me realize how much i genuinely have to do and how ill most probably not be able to finish all of it

changing schools is a solution but I don’t want to leave my friends and start from scratch + personal reasons and experiences I don’t want to mention

im gonna try to limit myself more on discord and try to put myself into a delusion to tell myself that I should value my studies over my own happiness and comfort even though I know it’s unhealthy for my mental health

theres just so much to do and I know I can’t complete it but I still force myself just to make the teachers happy

Also small update: I’m currently getting both medical and mental help from my therapist and a doctor (fuck her she’s mean) and it’s most probably physical

And to admit it, I am not okay but you guys don’t need to worry too much for me as we’re supposed to get the blood draw results today

I’m gonna probably only post art for the next few weeks and make a post here and there until my situation gets better as I don’t want magma becoming a toll for my mental health

I’ll still respond to DMs but I may respond slow

I’m also gonna check feed and stuff

tw: mentions of depression and vomiting/puking

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Socials teacher really pmo bc she’s forcing us to do a quiz and work in randomized teams

no one wants to do team work with people they don’t know first thing in the morning or last thing in the afternoon

and we had to take notes and she goes way to fucking fast like she tells us to look at the board bc the images are important but we have to write in the same time and she doesn’t tell us what’s important so it’s js really hard and annoying

I gave up on taking notes as she was going to fast for my head to understand what was happening around me so I js use @-⚙︎ 🖤 ⊹ 𝔅𝔞𝔟𝔞 ⊹ 🥀 ⚙︎- ‘s

and with my depression and shit, I really feel disgusting inside and I’m tired of constantly masking when I’m around people I don’t know. I eat way less than normal bc I feel like puking and it’s not doing any miracles.

I just don’t want to talk with people that I don’t consider friends and this fucking teacher asks me if I’m allowed arm warmers, I know damn well she wanted to send me to the director

/neg /notdoinggreat /vent

Day 23 of waiting for mafia to be translated

is that my glorious, elegant, intelligent, charming, kind, thoughtful, strong, courageous, creative, brilliant, gentle, humble, generous, passionate, wise, funny, loyal, dependable, graceful, radiant, calm, confident, warm, compassionate, witty, adventurous, respectful, sincere, magnetic, bold, articulate, empathetic, inspiring, honest, patient, powerful, attentive, uplifting, classy, friendly, reliable, ambitious, intuitive, talented, supportive, grounded, determined, charismatic, extraordinary, trustworthy, noble, dignified, perceptive, innovative, refined, considerate, balanced, open-minded, composed, imaginative, mindful, optimistic, virtuous, noble-hearted, well-spoken, quick-witted, deep, philosophical, fearless, affectionate, expressive, emotionally intelligent, resourceful, delightful, fascinating, sharp, selfless, driven, assertive, authentic, vibrant, playful, observant, skillful, generous-spirited, practical, comforting, brave, wise-hearted, enthusiastic, dependable, tactful, enduring, discreet, well-mannered, composed, mature, tasteful, joyful, understanding, genuine, brilliant-minded, encouraging, well-rounded, magnetic, dynamic, radiant, radiant-spirited, soulful, radiant-hearted, insightful, creative-souled, justice-minded, reliable-hearted, tender, uplifting-minded, persevering, devoted, angelic, down-to-earth, golden-hearted, gentle-spirited, clever, courageous-hearted, courteous, harmonious, loyal-minded, beautiful-souled, easygoing, sincere-hearted, respectful-minded, comforting-voiced, confident-minded, emotionally strong, respectful-souled, imaginative-hearted, protective, noble-minded, confident-souled, wise-eyed, loving, serene, magnetic-souled, expressive-eyed, brilliant-hearted, inspiring-minded, and absolutely unforgettable Wife???

Reposting this so my dumbass fish memory brain doesn’t forget