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heh, im not venting as much which is good, just talking about my system that I dont believe exists X3

I am kinda scared of fusing with anyone because nobody else likes Murder Drones and I'm scared that I'd stop liking Murder Drones if I did fuse (/srs) and then I'll explode (/j)

WHY IS ALMOST EVERYONE DORMANT.

I think eyekandi might not be christian and im gonna slime him out for that /j

but seriously how do
how
why
AHGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

anyway idk if he's still dormant but he probably is. grr.

Probably the only alter I like in my system is Mom. She's nice and takes care of me and stuff and is cool and yay

only caretaker not completely dormant.

I love telling myself I'm a singlet and then looking at Liv's posts and genuinely going insane because THAT WAS NOT ME.
FIRST OF ALL I ACTUALLY HATE TEA, I ONLY LIKE SWEET TEA FBHSJHGBEKJLSDIHBV
THE FACT THAT SHE DOESNT CARE ABOUT MURDER DRONES OR OBJECT SHOWS OTHER THAN INANIMATE INSANITY!?!?!?
her vocabulary isn't that crazy though I can speak like that grr
uhhhhhh she really likes gold jewelry but I think it looks horrible on me so I like silver
her love for writing but hatred towards drawing simply because she doesn't like our artstyle. I hecking LOVE my artstyle like grr her grr. I don't like writing either... I'm ok with it sometimes but I find itttt supperrrrr boringgg
she also likes reading, like, ew.
and then her obsession with the 1800s or whatever, like she acts so old, ew she's so old, EWWWWWWWW

ok but also where did she go I like talked to her a bit the other day when I learned about the Sippy drama because of how stressed I got but then she just dissapeared again... that's so mean dude

"How many alters do you have?" idk. maybe 12? 13? less? more? genuinely idk. at least 5.

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I felt Jack near front earlier and I was gonna let him front but I got distracted, ignored him, and now he's gone.

so darn.

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Im wondering if Mom is the same person as the imaginary older sister I talked to when I was a kid.
I can't remember if I just made her up or not, though, so darn.

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ive been posting about my system more recently cause i have nothing to vent or rant about that i havent already

genuinely wth happened to my headspace
I used to have a lil corner full of murder drones and purple that I would go to when I wasn't fronting and then suddenly it just went away one day and now all there is is a black void with a window.
Why is there a window ???

I still dont even know if I have childhood trauma, this is so ANNOYING NBRFVDNVVUEBIFCJNOHBRVHFHRBVI

I feel like if I lived it I should remember it but my forgetfulness disproves this so much
I just wish I could know if Im just forgetting it or if it actually happened because not knowing is annoying

throwback to when I thought I has schizophrenia 'cause I would hear and see people that weren't there

(I was wrong, I could 100% tell they weren't real, and they were not coming from the outside, more like internal dialogues and imagining things in my mind)

grrr i need a dissociative disorder specialist because im tiredd and this crap is tiringgg

no Jack, go away, I wanna beee hereee

im gonna try to trigger Liv to front or at least co-con because yeahhh

hopefullyyyy I dont end up distressing us even moree

i miss Liv...
I kinda wanna find a way to trigger her to front but I dont wanna force her to front, especially if she's dormant...
I am reading old messages we would give each other and like, yeah im definitely reeeaaallly mean to her... I miss her.
Liiiivvvv come backkk pleassseeee

LIV LIV HI COME BACK
PLEASE

nvm. minecraft was distracting and also i just couldnt trigger her (I WAS ONLY DOING POSITIVE TRIGGERS NO WORRIES)

LIV LIV HI COME BACK
PLEASE