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imme iime nawwt likiinf tthjis new updaate, , ,,,f, ime overwheelmedf snd tthje new changesf are sso disruptiive ,, as an autistic person tthjaat heavily relies on routine anndfnd visual consistency, ,,, whhye is it sso spaacious ,,

kamukoma anndfnd komahina snd komahinanami yyoou wjll foreever be iin mmy heaartt , ,,,f,

ii've notiicedf everytiiem imme involvedf wjth anythiinf on cuure's accoount tthje post onlye gets lieik arooundf one like oor potentially two at tthje most , ,,,is thhis proof thaat cure's followersf are booing f mme off of tthe staage andnfnd throowiinf tomatoes at m me , ,, /j /lh

WWHFHFF,,,F ,, /VVPOS WWHHAHAHFJHFG,G, ,, HHEEYYEYYY , , STAWP TTHJAAT STAWWP THTJAT,,,, , ❤️❤️❤️ EEKKEKEHEKHF ,,

mme weheen, ,,,f, ii haave ttjhe kewlest best friiwnd in tthje whoole wide woorld ,, loooksf at y oou ,,

ii've seeen sso maany people ddo tthjis wjth nagito maan, ,,,f, ii feeel lieik a lawwt a lawtt of people ddo nawtt understaand tthje complexity of his morally grey personality anndf shtuffs ,, imme alwayes seeiinf nagito get mischaracterizedf as lieik absoolutelly batshit insaane anndnd as iif his actions are driven bby malice oor soem soort of evil , ,,, oor nagito is beiinf treaated as a sooft snd entirely innocent chaaracter tthjat ddid nothiinf wroong ,whhich iis sso far off iif imme beiinf honest ,,,whiile ii ddo believe nagito iis a good person ii thinbk he goes aboour iit all wroong anndf iis dangeroous regardiinf his extreeme ideals andnndf hoowe he willingly orchestrates situationsf wheere peoople can snd ddo die aloongside a lawtt mooer shtuffs ,, ii feeel lieik sso maany people ddo nawtt recognize thaat nagito iis inherently morally grey

ii ddo nawwt usually taalk aboour tthjis kiindf of shtuffs siince imme nawtt fond of talkiinf aboout mmy personal isssuesf anndfnd snd thangs due tto discomfoort arooundf iit bbuut ii wantedf tto put thjis heere siince iits been botheriinf mme a lawwt a lawtt , ,,,f, mmy discouraged borderline personality is disorderiinf agaaiinn , ,,, oouahgjgh booy!!11!!!!! ii reaalllyly neeed tto taalk tto mai therapist soon siince imme suupa iin need of engagiinf in dbt agaain ,, ii've been splittiinf lieik multiple tiems everydaaye att tthje most minor shifts in mai environment snd the slightest perceived rejections ffour several monthsf noowe ,lieik mmy bpd is kICKIINF MMY ASS !!1!1!!!! nawwt tto mention hoowe terrible mai emotional permanence iis anndf tthje severity of mmy emotional dysregulation, , ,,,iits genuinely puttiinf me tthrooughj thhe wriinger ii can nawwt even lie,,f lieik ii can haardly loook at cloose people taalk tto someone else wjthouut haviinf jealous tendencies oor feeliinf rejected or abandoned anndf believing thjat ime inherently unloveable ,snd iit makes me feeel sso baad aboour iit , ,,,liek ii shoouldf nawwt be tthjat selfish wwuuht ,, ii alsso ,refuse tto ask foour reassurance regardiinf tthis shtuffs siince it makesf me waant tto crawl ouut of mai skiin no matter hoowe muuch ii'd liek tto ask if yyoou still waant me arooundf jsuut becauuse yoou doonr text me fiirst oor somethaang ,, iit feeels sso stuupid becauuse iits verry irrational ,ii haave sso maany cryiinf spells andnnd spirals over feeliinf left ouut siince tto me thjat 'proves' thaat imme jsut tolerated bby saiid person snd yoou doont actually liek me ,bpd is sso debilitating snd all of tthjis shtuffs ii saiid heere isn't even aall of iit ttheere is sso muuch moore thaat imme nawwt goiinf tto list siince this is alreaady a suupa lawwng post ,, anywauys ii jsut wantedf tto taalk aboout tthjat juust to get tthis ouut ,ii ddo nawwt knoowe if ii wouldf consider tthis a vent siince ii do nawtt liek to vent ,especially on thje internet , ,,taake thjis as yoou will ii guuesf

dduude imme cryiinf andff ,i opene d pinterest snndnd gawwt bombarded wjth komahiina yaooi , ,,NOOWE IS NAWT TJHE TIEM !!!1!

doonr even trip dawwg , ,,f, /ref

OOUGHJH YMY GAAWASFH II JSUT REALIISEDF II DIDNR TAAKE MAI PILLSF TTODAAYYE IMME ESSS O FWCKED ,,II APOLOGIIZE FFOUR MY SWEARIINF , ,,F,

ii can nawtt stawwp seeiinf nagito komaeda in tthjat stuupid rockstar cookiie ffroom crk ,,f, they lookf sso simiiar duude, ,,,f, all of tthjese losersf jsut dyinf tto be mme /lh /j

ii mmiss cuure, , ,,,f, imme miss cure ,,, eeueeueue, ,,,ii miss cuure f,,

nawtt enoough heartsf ii thinbk ,, does nawt replicate mmy loove ffour cuure closely enooufhgg, ,,,f,

ii gawt sum bloodwork doone recentllyf anndf jsut foound ouut tthjat mai vitamin d level is 6, ,,,f,wwhich is realllyly suupa loowe consideriinf thaat tthje adequate range ffour a personsf vitamin d level is lieik 20 snd aboove iif ii recall correctlyf ,, whhich makesf sense siince ii've had a lawtt a lawwt of x-rays doone in tthe past regardinf mmy skeletal deformities anndfnd sum of tthje medical professionals theere snd shtuffs mentionedf hoowe washed ouut andnnd dim mai bones lookedf siince typically tthje skeleton appearsf a briight white on x-rays ii thinbk, ,,,f, sso noowe ii havr tto take vitamin d supplementsf , iron , anndfnd multivitaminsf everydaaye duude ,, can mmy body jsut saye it wantsf me dead ii already haave two diseases give me a BREAK!!1!!1! /lh

@cursosis soemtimesf beats me uup ,, /j

LIEIK II KEEP FIINDINF ,FOOUR LEAF CLOVERSF ANNDFND SHTUFFS AND MMY FIIRST THOOUGHT IS 'II MUUST BE LUCKKY !1!1!!!!' OOGHJGH HYMAAI GAWWSH ,, IIME BACK IN TTHJE FUCKING BUILDING AGAAIN!!1!! /REF

beiinf a permashifted fullfic is nawtt foour tthje weak duude ,, imme iime alwayesf constaantly nagito anndf two tiime snd iitsf a bit overhwelmiinf soemtimes, ,,,f, thooughjf tthje intensity regardiinf two time has been a lawtt a lawwt less as of laate siince it tends tto fluctuate ,, oouughgjhh mai gawwshh , , , ,,,,,f,

by tthje waaye iif yoou ever happeenf tto loook at mai accoount anndf notiice half of tthe drawiinfs are goone jsut knoowe ii tend tto do thaat t, ,,, ii delete a lawtt a lawwt of mmy shtuffs impulsively,,