too much

I feel like I've been too much lately.

Too clingy towards Grim.
Too Much "I want to hang out with you" to Grim

I am too much, even if he says I'm not. It's probably the reason he barely hangs out with me. His friends are more important than me, I fear.
3-4 hours with them, he told me. Though I can't remember the last time we hung out that much.
I'm grateful that I get all day with him sometimes. But I wanna hang out with him every day.
However, I do understand he's in college, and he's trying to succeed for his parents. He doesn't always have time.

Though it feels like I don't matter. It feels like every time after school, after he's done with his homework, he plays with them. He hasn't asked me if I want to play with him, but of course I don't get along with Jack and Grim's type of games, and my type are very different.

I still love him.
I always will.
I just wish I had more of his attention and affection.

T.S.G
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