STAYING UP ALL NIGHT BC WHY NOT


names u can call me if u want: old acc name: ♱⋆ ☾ † h r o a t L!BR@ry☾⋆♱, or you can call me maxxi or whv
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︎ ⋆⁺₊⋆ ☾ ★ 𝐇𝐈 𝐈'𝐌 𝐌𝐀𝐗! :𝟑 ★ ☾ ⋆⁺₊⋆
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𝐋𝐨𝐚𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐌𝐚𝐱.𝐞𝐱𝐞... [██████████░] 99% ⚠️ FATAL ERROR: Serotonin_Module.dll not found. ⚠️ SYSTEM ALERT: Rebooting with excessive caffeine, spite, and silly putty.
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Online: Physically present, mentally in the backrooms.
Busy: Having a mental breakdown (scheduled 2:00-4:00 PM).
🟣 Vibing: Listening to the same song for 7 hours.
Numb/crying or has been crying: The void is loud today. (Do not perceive me).
🟢 Manic: I WILL FIGHT GOD AND EAT THE SUN.
Sleep Mode: Just kidding, I have insomnia.
🟡I'm high asf if I am or haven't slept in days
: Happy / High Energy
depression
: Sad / Low Energy
Pissed off: Angry / Overstimulated: I will snap dont test my ass >:[
its been a day
: Sleepy / Offline
🟠 ok its that type of thing to where you've pushed me to my limits or someone pushed me to that limit
: Overwhelmed / "Going Insane"
/🩸: s3lf h4rm...don't ask or bleeding
: with me loves/happy/in love
: miss me wife
🥲: miss meh pooks
🥺: miss meh wife and meh pooks
: this is and i quote "i want to die but cant" :D
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𝐈𝐃𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐈𝐓𝐘 𝐂𝐀𝐑𝐃
🏳️⚧️ Subject: Max (He/Him/It) | Trans Guy | Femboy 🏳️⚧️
Class: Level 100 Gremlin / Professional Dissociator 🧬 Species: 3 Raccoons in a trench coat.
DNI: Homophobes, Transphobes, P@Dos, Zoo. 🦷 Warning: I look like a cinnamon roll but I taste like battery acid. I am also polyamorous so yeahhhh :]
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Fun Fact :D : if I'm ever typing "..." I'm either crying/overthinking/ or just don't know what to say-
Fun Fact #2: if I ever just go quiet on call around 12am my time I'm either asleep/on mute/or cutting so if I dont respond from my name being called expect me to be asleep but if I do with my voice shaky I would like to be comforted...and not asked what's wrong or if u do just expect me to respond in a few minutes
POV my bf: "Omg haiii!! Pwease don’t be mad at me for being so extra, but I was just sitting here thinking about how much I wub my favorite hoomans!! 🥺 You guys are literally the sunshine to my seedling, the wittle pitter-patter in my heart-y-warty! I’m so sowwy if this is too much but I just wanted to say... nuzzles your friendship ...thank you for being my fowever besties!! If we were flowers, we’d be the cutest wittle bouquet in the whole wide world! UwU!! I’m literally shaking because I’m so lucky to have you both!! pwease never leave me!!" with me and my pook Sarah :3
A quote from a wife:
me: "we leave the lights low- where the fuck did I put the purple"- me 20 seconds ago-
Her:
falls over and off the couch laughing
me:
0-0 dies laughing
my fav from other friends:
mk-25:
"they better...
or
or
uh
I'll get a divorce
I don't mean that
I would dye if that happened
my honest reaction:
0-0"
Sarah: "IM TOUCHING MY COOCH TO PICS OF DADDT VENOM RN" oh Lord have mercy
casually dies
Besties :]:
@🩵🖤MK-25🖤🩵 (SUSPENDED?!?) (MY LOVE ❤️/thank u for listening when I need u <3)
@kyla-the-cool-drawer [🔴] (POOKIEEEEEEE!!/one of my favorite friends online <3 MEH TWINN)
@🧭🐎🚊_Dyl3_T1m3sly_🚊🐎🧭 (POOKIEEEEEE!!/my irl bestiee -^-)
@Lexi (POOKIEEEE!!/ one of my best online friends)
Family:
@Eli🖤💜💀 (me cuz and my FAVORITE cousin >:[)
@🩵🖤MK-25🖤🩵 (SUSPENDED?!?) (ME WIFE ❤️ thank u for listening when I need u <3 and I am counting you as family now :])
@kyla-the-cool-drawer [🔴] (POOKIEEEEEEE!!/one of my favorite friends online <3 MEH TWINN AND SIS >:3)
@sorrow-angel (MEH SON AND THE ONLY ONE <3 love u son :] <3)
@iamsawwwaaaahhh (My wonderful wife)
@-=-=B4C0N_ARS0N1ST=-=- (meh hus :3)
idk what we are anymore...:
@♰🖤ZADE🖤♰ (DRINKING PISS OFF (I loved u and I still kinda do but...I'm the reason we're like this now...I'm sorry...for everything...)
@*~Dandy~* (idfk where u went but I'm sorry...for everything...)
You should totally follow...
@BANNED
@ARLOᶻ 𝗓 𐰁 .ᐟ(Light) ˖ ꒰𑁬 ♡ ໒
@🩵🖤MK-25🖤🩵 (SUSPENDED?!?)
@Eli🖤💜💀
@♬~ℨ𝔢𝔷𝔢~♬{🎧} (my wife :])
@🧭🐎🚊_Dyl3_T1m3sly_🚊🐎🧭
@Lexi
@kyla-the-cool-drawer [🔴]
@sorrow-angel (be nice to him >:[)
@iateurwaffles1 (my beautiful random girly friend :])
@-=-=B4C0N_ARS0N1ST=-=- (meh hus)
𝐌𝐎𝐎𝐃: 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐄𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐍𝐀𝐋 𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐀𝐃𝐎𝐗
I am simultaneously "YIPPEE!!! :D" and "I wish to decay into moss." My brain is a web browser with 4,829 tabs open, half are frozen, and I don't know where the music is coming from.
Outside: 🤪
"Look at this frog!!"
Inside: 🕳️
🌫️ (TV Static Noise)
🧠 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐌𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐀𝐋 𝐈𝐋𝐋𝐍𝐄𝐒𝐒 𝐂𝐎𝐋𝐋𝐄𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍 🧠 (Gotta catch 'em all? No thanks, take them back.)
🌪️ ADHD:
"I have the attention span of a goldfish on crack. I will interrupt you. I will forget what I was saying. I will start a new hobby and abandon it in 3 hours."
PTSD:
"Haunted House Simulator 2024. No jumpscares please, I'm already shaking."
⚖️ OCD:
"If I don't step on the crack in the pavement correctly, the world explodes. Sorry, I don't make the rules."
Anorexia Nervosa:
"My relationship with food is... complicated. Please be gentle. I'm trying my best to exist in a physical form." (I also like not eating for several days and don't pass out or eat until you force me -^-)
🧩 Autism:
"Social cues? Never heard of her. If I stare at you, I'm just buffering. If I don't make eye contact, I'm listening."
Anxiety:
"Boss music is playing 24/7 but there are no enemies nearby. Everything is scary. Ordering pizza is a war crime."
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𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐓𝐒
🗣️ Charisma: -10 (I will stutter and die)
🛡️ Defense: High (Wall built of sarcasm & trauma)
Stamina: 0% (Tired since 2012)
Mana: Powered by Monster Energy & Panic
Masking: Level 99 Master ╰──────────────────────────╯
🦢 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐒𝐎𝐂𝐈𝐀𝐋 𝐏𝐈𝐏𝐄𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐄 🦢 Phase 1: Stranger Danger ( •_•) ...
Silent.
Trembling like a chihuahua.
One word replies.
Looking at the floor.
Phase 2: Comfort Zone Unlocked (
0
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EAR RAPE WARNING.
Oversharing trauma like it's a funny joke.
"AND THEN I SAID-"
Sending you 50 TikToks at 3 AM.
Will bite you affectionately.
𝐑𝐄𝐋𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐏 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐓𝐔𝐒
UNAVAILABLE. The only thing I'm committed to is my own suffering and maybe this cool rock I found. Romance is bloatware. I uninstalled it to make room for more hyperfixations. Please do not fall in love with me, I am a walking hazard sign. (I have a lover tho a real one so ye :])
𝐀𝐔𝐃𝐈𝐓𝐎𝐑𝐘 𝐒𝐓𝐈𝐌𝐔𝐋𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍
Genres: "Sounds like a washing machine falling down stairs," Breakcore, Midwest Emo, Vocaloid. On Repeat: ↻ ◁ II ▷ ↺
Songs I like and love:
Medicate me- RainCityDrive and Dayseeker (song for meh wife)
Rush- Dutch Melrose (it reminds me of my wife ngl-)
Nothing Left to Lose- Point North
Below the Belt- Point North (feat- Set it Off)
Baby Dont Cut- Bmike (if yk yk)
Angel- JAKE WEBBERRRRRRR (my child >:3 it also reminds me of meh wife :3)
Hollywood- Johnnie Guilbert
Nothing Special- STOMACH BOOK
Paper Dolls- STOMACH BOOK
SICK SICK SICK- STOMACH BOOK
FUKOUNA GIRL- STOMACH BOOK
ect I cant think of any else but I'll put them in here when i do :] ik my songs are lwk ass but deal with it once you listen to them you'll see why I like them >:[
My Chemical Romance - (For the angst)
Femtanyl - (For the brain itch)
Jack Stauber - (For the dissociation)
Corpse Husband - (For the vibes)
VISUAL STIMS: Hazbin Hotel, Helluva Boss, FNAF Lore (8 hour video essay version), Bluey (for healing, I LOVE BLUEY DONT BLAME ME >:[).
🫂 𝐌𝐘 𝐏𝐎𝐎𝐊𝐈𝐄𝐒 (𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐅𝐀𝐌) 🫂 (If you hurt them, I will harvest your kneecaps and feed them to the void <3) 🦴 @🩵🖤MK-25🖤🩵 (SUSPENDED?!?) 🦴 @kyla-the-cool-drawer [🔴] 🦴 @Eli🖤💜💀 @V0x (I am the dad of the group but also the baby. It makes sense, don't ask. There's more I just cant remember their @'s)
⚠️ 𝐃𝐈𝐒𝐂𝐋𝐀𝐈𝐌𝐄𝐑 / 𝐓𝐖 ⚠️ I joke about my pain because if I don't laugh, I'll scream. I am fragile. I break easily. I have abandonment issues, so if you leave, please just block me so I don't wait for a reply. I disappear for weeks at a time. It's not you, it's the depression. I also have a obsession of s3lf-h4rm so good luck with that. I relapse like a ticking time boom, but the last time it was really bad so I might end up doing more and putting myself in the hospital :].
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🖇️ LINKS: [Carrd] [Spotify] [My Last Braincell]
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𝐄𝐍𝐃 𝐎𝐅 𝐁𝐈𝐎. 𝐒𝐇𝐔𝐓𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐃𝐎𝐖𝐍. 
AND I SAY "FUCK ICE"
names u can call me if u want: old acc name: ♱⋆ ☾ † h r o a t L!BR@ry☾⋆♱, or you can call me maxxi or whv
☾ ⋆⁺₊⋆
︎ ⋆⁺₊⋆ ☾ ⋆⁺₊⋆
︎ ⋆⁺₊⋆ ☾ ★ 𝐇𝐈 𝐈'𝐌 𝐌𝐀𝐗! :𝟑 ★ ☾ ⋆⁺₊⋆
︎ ⋆⁺₊⋆ ☾ ⋆⁺₊⋆
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𝐋𝐨𝐚𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐌𝐚𝐱.𝐞𝐱𝐞... [██████████░] 99% ⚠️ FATAL ERROR: Serotonin_Module.dll not found. ⚠️ SYSTEM ALERT: Rebooting with excessive caffeine, spite, and silly putty.
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Online: Physically present, mentally in the backrooms.
Busy: Having a mental breakdown (scheduled 2:00-4:00 PM).
🟣 Vibing: Listening to the same song for 7 hours.
Numb/crying or has been crying: The void is loud today. (Do not perceive me).
🟢 Manic: I WILL FIGHT GOD AND EAT THE SUN.
Sleep Mode: Just kidding, I have insomnia.
🟡I'm high asf if I am or haven't slept in days
: Happy / High Energy
depression
: Sad / Low Energy
Pissed off: Angry / Overstimulated: I will snap dont test my ass >:[
its been a day
: Sleepy / Offline
🟠 ok its that type of thing to where you've pushed me to my limits or someone pushed me to that limit
: Overwhelmed / "Going Insane"
/🩸: s3lf h4rm...don't ask or bleeding
: with me loves/happy/in love
: miss me wife
🥲: miss meh pooks
🥺: miss meh wife and meh pooks
: this is and i quote "i want to die but cant" :D
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𝐈𝐃𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐈𝐓𝐘 𝐂𝐀𝐑𝐃
🏳️⚧️ Subject: Max (He/Him/It) | Trans Guy | Femboy 🏳️⚧️
Class: Level 100 Gremlin / Professional Dissociator 🧬 Species: 3 Raccoons in a trench coat.
DNI: Homophobes, Transphobes, P@Dos, Zoo. 🦷 Warning: I look like a cinnamon roll but I taste like battery acid. I am also polyamorous so yeahhhh :]
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Fun Fact :D : if I'm ever typing "..." I'm either crying/overthinking/ or just don't know what to say-
Fun Fact #2: if I ever just go quiet on call around 12am my time I'm either asleep/on mute/or cutting so if I dont respond from my name being called expect me to be asleep but if I do with my voice shaky I would like to be comforted...and not asked what's wrong or if u do just expect me to respond in a few minutes
POV my bf: "Omg haiii!! Pwease don’t be mad at me for being so extra, but I was just sitting here thinking about how much I wub my favorite hoomans!! 🥺 You guys are literally the sunshine to my seedling, the wittle pitter-patter in my heart-y-warty! I’m so sowwy if this is too much but I just wanted to say... nuzzles your friendship ...thank you for being my fowever besties!! If we were flowers, we’d be the cutest wittle bouquet in the whole wide world! UwU!! I’m literally shaking because I’m so lucky to have you both!! pwease never leave me!!" with me and my pook Sarah :3
A quote from a wife:
me: "we leave the lights low- where the fuck did I put the purple"- me 20 seconds ago-
Her:
falls over and off the couch laughing
me:
0-0 dies laughing
my fav from other friends:
mk-25:
"they better...
or
or
uh
I'll get a divorce
I don't mean that
I would dye if that happened
my honest reaction:
0-0"
Sarah: "IM TOUCHING MY COOCH TO PICS OF DADDT VENOM RN" oh Lord have mercy
casually dies
Besties :]:
@🩵🖤MK-25🖤🩵 (SUSPENDED?!?) (MY LOVE ❤️/thank u for listening when I need u <3)
@kyla-the-cool-drawer [🔴] (POOKIEEEEEEE!!/one of my favorite friends online <3 MEH TWINN)
@🧭🐎🚊_Dyl3_T1m3sly_🚊🐎🧭 (POOKIEEEEEE!!/my irl bestiee -^-)
@Lexi (POOKIEEEE!!/ one of my best online friends)
Family:
@Eli🖤💜💀 (me cuz and my FAVORITE cousin >:[)
@🩵🖤MK-25🖤🩵 (SUSPENDED?!?) (ME WIFE ❤️ thank u for listening when I need u <3 and I am counting you as family now :])
@kyla-the-cool-drawer [🔴] (POOKIEEEEEEE!!/one of my favorite friends online <3 MEH TWINN AND SIS >:3)
@sorrow-angel (MEH SON AND THE ONLY ONE <3 love u son :] <3)
@iamsawwwaaaahhh (My wonderful wife)
@-=-=B4C0N_ARS0N1ST=-=- (meh hus :3)
idk what we are anymore...:
@♰🖤ZADE🖤♰ (DRINKING PISS OFF (I loved u and I still kinda do but...I'm the reason we're like this now...I'm sorry...for everything...)
@*~Dandy~* (idfk where u went but I'm sorry...for everything...)
You should totally follow...
@BANNED
@ARLOᶻ 𝗓 𐰁 .ᐟ(Light) ˖ ꒰𑁬 ♡ ໒
@🩵🖤MK-25🖤🩵 (SUSPENDED?!?)
@Eli🖤💜💀
@♬~ℨ𝔢𝔷𝔢~♬{🎧} (my wife :])
@🧭🐎🚊_Dyl3_T1m3sly_🚊🐎🧭
@Lexi
@kyla-the-cool-drawer [🔴]
@sorrow-angel (be nice to him >:[)
@iateurwaffles1 (my beautiful random girly friend :])
@-=-=B4C0N_ARS0N1ST=-=- (meh hus)
𝐌𝐎𝐎𝐃: 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐄𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐍𝐀𝐋 𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐀𝐃𝐎𝐗
I am simultaneously "YIPPEE!!! :D" and "I wish to decay into moss." My brain is a web browser with 4,829 tabs open, half are frozen, and I don't know where the music is coming from.
Outside: 🤪
"Look at this frog!!"
Inside: 🕳️
🌫️ (TV Static Noise)
🧠 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐌𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐀𝐋 𝐈𝐋𝐋𝐍𝐄𝐒𝐒 𝐂𝐎𝐋𝐋𝐄𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍 🧠 (Gotta catch 'em all? No thanks, take them back.)
🌪️ ADHD:
"I have the attention span of a goldfish on crack. I will interrupt you. I will forget what I was saying. I will start a new hobby and abandon it in 3 hours."
PTSD:
"Haunted House Simulator 2024. No jumpscares please, I'm already shaking."
⚖️ OCD:
"If I don't step on the crack in the pavement correctly, the world explodes. Sorry, I don't make the rules."
Anorexia Nervosa:
"My relationship with food is... complicated. Please be gentle. I'm trying my best to exist in a physical form." (I also like not eating for several days and don't pass out or eat until you force me -^-)
🧩 Autism:
"Social cues? Never heard of her. If I stare at you, I'm just buffering. If I don't make eye contact, I'm listening."
Anxiety:
"Boss music is playing 24/7 but there are no enemies nearby. Everything is scary. Ordering pizza is a war crime."
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𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐓𝐒
🗣️ Charisma: -10 (I will stutter and die)
🛡️ Defense: High (Wall built of sarcasm & trauma)
Stamina: 0% (Tired since 2012)
Mana: Powered by Monster Energy & Panic
Masking: Level 99 Master ╰──────────────────────────╯
🦢 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐒𝐎𝐂𝐈𝐀𝐋 𝐏𝐈𝐏𝐄𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐄 🦢 Phase 1: Stranger Danger ( •_•) ...
Silent.
Trembling like a chihuahua.
One word replies.
Looking at the floor.
Phase 2: Comfort Zone Unlocked (
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EAR RAPE WARNING.
Oversharing trauma like it's a funny joke.
"AND THEN I SAID-"
Sending you 50 TikToks at 3 AM.
Will bite you affectionately.
𝐑𝐄𝐋𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐏 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐓𝐔𝐒
UNAVAILABLE. The only thing I'm committed to is my own suffering and maybe this cool rock I found. Romance is bloatware. I uninstalled it to make room for more hyperfixations. Please do not fall in love with me, I am a walking hazard sign. (I have a lover tho a real one so ye :])
𝐀𝐔𝐃𝐈𝐓𝐎𝐑𝐘 𝐒𝐓𝐈𝐌𝐔𝐋𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍
Genres: "Sounds like a washing machine falling down stairs," Breakcore, Midwest Emo, Vocaloid. On Repeat: ↻ ◁ II ▷ ↺
Songs I like and love:
Medicate me- RainCityDrive and Dayseeker (song for meh wife)
Rush- Dutch Melrose (it reminds me of my wife ngl-)
Nothing Left to Lose- Point North
Below the Belt- Point North (feat- Set it Off)
Baby Dont Cut- Bmike (if yk yk)
Angel- JAKE WEBBERRRRRRR (my child >:3 it also reminds me of meh wife :3)
Hollywood- Johnnie Guilbert
Nothing Special- STOMACH BOOK
Paper Dolls- STOMACH BOOK
SICK SICK SICK- STOMACH BOOK
FUKOUNA GIRL- STOMACH BOOK
ect I cant think of any else but I'll put them in here when i do :] ik my songs are lwk ass but deal with it once you listen to them you'll see why I like them >:[
My Chemical Romance - (For the angst)
Femtanyl - (For the brain itch)
Jack Stauber - (For the dissociation)
Corpse Husband - (For the vibes)
VISUAL STIMS: Hazbin Hotel, Helluva Boss, FNAF Lore (8 hour video essay version), Bluey (for healing, I LOVE BLUEY DONT BLAME ME >:[).
🫂 𝐌𝐘 𝐏𝐎𝐎𝐊𝐈𝐄𝐒 (𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐅𝐀𝐌) 🫂 (If you hurt them, I will harvest your kneecaps and feed them to the void <3) 🦴 @🩵🖤MK-25🖤🩵 (SUSPENDED?!?) 🦴 @kyla-the-cool-drawer [🔴] 🦴 @Eli🖤💜💀 @V0x (I am the dad of the group but also the baby. It makes sense, don't ask. There's more I just cant remember their @'s)
⚠️ 𝐃𝐈𝐒𝐂𝐋𝐀𝐈𝐌𝐄𝐑 / 𝐓𝐖 ⚠️ I joke about my pain because if I don't laugh, I'll scream. I am fragile. I break easily. I have abandonment issues, so if you leave, please just block me so I don't wait for a reply. I disappear for weeks at a time. It's not you, it's the depression. I also have a obsession of s3lf-h4rm so good luck with that. I relapse like a ticking time boom, but the last time it was really bad so I might end up doing more and putting myself in the hospital :].
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🖇️ LINKS: [Carrd] [Spotify] [My Last Braincell]
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𝐄𝐍𝐃 𝐎𝐅 𝐁𝐈𝐎. 𝐒𝐇𝐔𝐓𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐃𝐎𝐖𝐍. 
AND I SAY "FUCK ICE"
Currently trying to keep myself together and not break down again.
I've tried for so many people, they never cared.
Knowing I'm the back up friend hurts more than words, and thinking this is how life is.
I've tried to be the best for everyone, they pull me down every time I do.
Thinking about all the times I thought I was happy when in reality I wasn't, just hiding it all so no one notices the cracks on the mask.
-max
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Im crying so hard rn and it's 2 in the morning and listening to Bella Kay...I..I just can't can't do it anymore and I leave in like 5 hours...so yeah...
Twins.
Ok y'all my FUCKING SCHOOL BLOCKED MAGMA SO IM USING MY- fucking phone and I'm still pissed Abt it but I got to skip 2 days of school at least but I fucking ate my school I wouldn't recommend to come here in my state and town ok ok but anyway hru y'all 
Ye
hi
I feel better now yall but still feel like shit so if I don't respond to y'all right away expect me to be sleeping or smth
K
*hugs*
OK WHY IS BBNO$ PLAYING IN MY HEAD RN- send help <3
TWO FOUR SIZ EIGHT WHO DO WE APPRECUATE ITS BAAABY NO MOONEYYY
I'm back...ig...but I wont be at 3:25 my time...at all...or on the weekend :] ...I'ma jump off a building I swear-
do. not. do. any. of. that.
fr me for the past few weeks-