akemisfliphone

okay one thing i dont get it when other people post negative stuff they get immediate comfort but when i do it i don't. whats up with that.
i ALWAYS try to comfort my friends no matter what but when i want comfort i dont seem to get it
am i doing something wrong please tell me

i just . i dont know
i really hate how im acting
i sound so desperate and im so selfish and i need to learn to just shut up

i cant ever be happy ive been so happy for so long but i just feel so shitty right now
i cant do anything i cant clean i cant write i cant make music im such a lazy peace of shit dude
ive lost motivation like i want to do it but i cant becayse im always fucking busy or i fall asleep and i hate that . i hate that i do that

would it be better if i just left because sometimes i feel like i should
sorry im
fuck i hate this why do I feel so terrible

i'm sorry if i sound like im begging someone to write a song about me or like maybe lyrics based off of me ive always wanted that for years for a song to be written about me by one of my closest friends. the closest thing i have to that is me writing a song about myself but that sounds kinda self-centered? i don't know anymore.
im sorry does this sound like im desperate i just
im sorry im really really sorry

ugh i sound like im just a girl who complains about everything dont i im sorry

ii hatee how anytimeiforgetsomething oor ddosomething thatinvovles me just being tired my parents feellthe need to SCARE me into remembering to do it
eithherthator they juustcall me "selfish" or "an idiot" bbecauseiforgot to do something .
iits just realluyannoyingolay

my mom is currently calling him out for him thinking that he's always right and he's denying it again.
"i don't think i'm right all the time! i just KNOW i'm right rn because your point is stupid!"
said point is literally just her trying to tell him about something she's educated on. like okay.

god im so fucking tired of this
i'm so sick of having to listen to them argue and argue and ARGUE
i wish i lived in a quiet house sigh

also my moms never able to actually get her point across because my dad's always interrupting her and talking over her
its so annoying and i have to listen to this before i go to bed. like seriously dude what

i hate talking to my dad about serious stuff or politics because when it's something i'm/my mom is actually educated about he always insists he's right when he isn't
most of the time its him telling my mom she's wrong about something SHE LITERALLY IS EDUCATED ON.
right now they're agruing about a murder case thing and he keeps telling her she's wrong when she LITERALLY STUDIED LAW FOR YEARS BEFORE DECIDING SHE DIDN'T WANT TO BE A LAWYER. like brooo omfg.

ughh why did i have to mention that stupid REALITY friendgroup,, i really don't wanna remember them
god that dude was gross

i can't ddothis im genuinely about to cry i cant do this i CANT

god i fucking hated that so much i gagged. i GAGGED.
i should just block and move on. i'll forget about it hopefully.
i really hope i forget about it.

for the past two days ive felt nauseous and i dont know why
itll randomly happen in parts of the day, its so weird

i kinda forgot about this account,,

i feel like I’m too possessive over him. like it’s sickening,, I’m jealous of his F/O. A FICTIONAL CHARACTER.
it’s not like bad jealousy im just.. I don’t know anymore.. i’m scared he’ll leave me like Michelle did

ugh i feel like i can’t do anything,, i almost didn’t shower or get dressed yesterday,,
god i’m so worthless and pitiful. i can’t do anything

this is a vent acc now ok im probably not gonna use it for entities