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LETS GO GAM-
If yall invited me to a canvas and I didn’t join check what Im doing, if Im off I don’t get notifications, if im in a prIvate canvas id most likely join, and if im in an artjaM I probably won’t join. But I would join laTer. I wouldn’t joIn if I made friEnds and won’t want to leave or if im mid dRawing. Yeah, anyways.
..Ahem, LETS GO GAMBLING 
(yes this is my second time as chance but idgaf, and Idgag. Hah.)
ITS EARTHWORM SALLY CARRYING DESEASES FROM FLORIda TO CALI!! 
“Its either I know, Or I dont know.” - me.
Roblox games u should play;
Project: rusher - a rhythm game
Chasing - an asymmetrical game
No mercy - nullscape inspired game
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I yap a lot. So yeah, you have been warned.
I’m weird, so that’s something.
I love [[LUCA]] the singer(?) yeah okay..
favourite song as for right now; https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=2nbl8tL_pho&si=NCOTPhQsB_4Z1Pmf
He/him/any honestly
Yeah idk what else to put here without giving too much inFo so.. here. https://en.pronouns.page/@Avigailido Yeah thats all
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If you’re already here, mind checking this guy out?
https://youtube.com/@very_very_evil?si=fILzAzLaN5w4EbKf
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Who am I anymore..
LETS GO GAM-
If yall invited me to a canvas and I didn’t join check what Im doing, if Im off I don’t get notifications, if im in a prIvate canvas id most likely join, and if im in an artjaM I probably won’t join. But I would join laTer. I wouldn’t joIn if I made friEnds and won’t want to leave or if im mid dRawing. Yeah, anyways.
..Ahem, LETS GO GAMBLING (yes this is my second time as chance but idgaf, and Idgag. Hah.)
ITS EARTHWORM SALLY CARRYING DESEASES FROM FLORIda TO CALI!!
“Its either I know, Or I dont know.” - me.
Roblox games u should play;
Project: rusher - a rhythm game
Chasing - an asymmetrical game
No mercy - nullscape inspired game
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░░░▌░▄▄▄▐▌▀▀▀░░ This is Bob
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I yap a lot. So yeah, you have been warned.
I’m weird, so that’s something.
I love [[LUCA]] the singer(?) yeah okay..
favourite song as for right now; https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=2nbl8tL_pho&si=NCOTPhQsB_4Z1Pmf
He/him/any honestly
Yeah idk what else to put here without giving too much inFo so.. here. https://en.pronouns.page/@Avigailido Yeah thats all
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If you’re already here, mind checking this guy out?
https://youtube.com/@very_very_evil?si=fILzAzLaN5w4EbKf
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Who am I anymore..
“Super hyper style”
IS THAT… F-FEMTANYL?!!
YESSSSSSSSSSSSSS
PIRRIOT this is so good
I can’t cry. Why can’t I cry? The tears won’t go out. They stay. They fight. I just want to cry. I want to be released. I want to be able to do what I want. But even so, the only thing I truly want is to feel loved..
When anyone say they are leaving, everyone always says bye.
when I say, it’s nothing,
when they return, everyone always say that they missed them.
when I say it’s nothing.
whenever he talks to her, he’s nice, he’s kind, he’s good.
when he talks to me, it’s slurs, full of hate.
whenever he says something out of place to her, she’s fine with it.
when I say, it’s bad.
when I finally told her how I feel, she didn’t care. She says that she’s an adult, and she chooses for herself.
When I ask something, silent.
when someone else does? I think you got the point…
I know you willl never read this, but it’s not fair.
I always try. And fail.
im not the funny one, not the nice one, not the ‘mom’ friend, not the smart one, not the dumb one, not the cool, not the artist. What am I then? Nothing. Zero. That’s what I’ll always be. Wouldn’t it?
ik im hard to understand, but you never tried. I know i might be annoying, but just try to understand my own side. I never had friends, I was always the problem. Still am. The weird one, the quiet one, the one everyone hates, the one that even his friend doesn’t like him. I thought I find home with you.
i thought..
I thought you were cool, zac.
i thought you were cute, Bon.
i thought you were nice, Lex.
i thought you were smart, Luke.
I only trust you, Leo. Thank you for caring.
but you.
Why are you reading this?
for your own entertainment?
are you curious?
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Then why?
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I will always be no one. They won’t care if I was gone. And im suffering. So the answer is clear.
im giving this one last chance.
One.
single.
week.
And if u truely do leave in a week, then ill remember u
I hope u feel better eventually, but one thing is that crying cant come in a snap, its a thing people have to train not to do/to do sometimes, and its not easy, but there are people that see u and that will be here, that will read every story, just read a few of ur comments then see, there are people who care, and if theyre temporary... then at least they were there at some point, thats what matters in the end because nothing is permanant but its everyones job to get back up again and again, no matter if theyre supported or not
I have no idea why I’m wasting my life. Why am I wasting every moment? I want to do so much and be so important for the world, but I just can’t. Everything drains my energy, even smiling. So how am I going to do it? When no one even asks me how I am by themselves? Almost everyone I know won’t care even if I were gone. And if I’m not helping myself, and only suffering.. Then why?
Why am I not loveable?
why do everyone try to get away?
is me at all? Is it them?
will I be able to change that?
…Will I ever be loved for who I truly am? Without the masks..?
Yk what, cosmic pal? How are you today? I’m down for some stories.
Loved or not, youre honored for trying, and ill be a friend if you need it
Might add someone, idk, but I’m making ts so YOU can make someone there. So go crazy
please contact me about your cars extended warrantee.
My precious son, please survive
My beautiful beautiful baby
…who hurt you?? I’m gonna need to see them in the ground, deep under the grass. And if you think you hurt yourself, it’s not your fault.