Salutations, beautiful strangers!!
We go by Xarian or Estin

(My old username was “Pastel Kawaii Stars” btw. I had a milky way cookie pfp)

[My apologies, but this lemon has quit being chronically active on this app]

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[Please read these 2 long texts before I continue]

<My reason for quitting>
So, I apparently have quit being active on this app and posting stuff and interacting with people. But I have my reasons. Before I got onto Magma, I had my insecurities and I was going through some sort of identity crisis. I also had gone through a period of where I had to seriously focus on my studies, and lost my excellence in my art skills. So my art had become crappy then. Magma was suggested to me by a friend, and getting onto it right after my identity crisis and loss of art style was not a good idea. I tried to instantly display my art (without giving myself some time to heal and look for different ways to improve my art style). I jumped from place to place on Magma, and the more amazing art I saw, the more insecurities I regained. I thought my art wasn’t good enough. So then came the people-pleasing. And seeing others here dealing with mental issues had a big impact on the people-pleasing and overthinking of how I could help others and have good art. It was terrible for me. So, in all the mess I decided to just end my reign here and take a long (permanent) break from Magma. (There could be a chance of me coming back, but I don’t think I will.) You’ll rarely see me online, but if you do it is more than likely that I am drawing with friends or so.

<My Future Plan>
I’ve been working on a personal project lately. A Christian Fantasy series (inspired by The Wingfeather Saga and The Chronicles of Narnia). It displays different themes of Christianity but inconspicuously shows the meaning of the different parts of each story. I’ve not a name for my whole series yet, but I do have a bunch of the stories I am working on. Each story has more than one theme in it. Now, besides the stories, I also have a bunch of songs related to the stories. (I’ve written/composed about 90+ songs so far, which I sorted into 8 albums). The songs’ themes will be based on the story it’s about, or, it will just be a random melodic mess (most of them are T^T). The genre of the songs will be inspired by the indie folk/indie rock genre, but it will be a little different as I do have my own way of making songs as I do with my style of writing.

Expect the first book of my series to come out sometime soon.

(I have received such an amazing opportunity from a loving friend of mine to be able to publish some books. Now, I am currently WORKINNNGGGGGG on my stuff :D)
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Moving on!!

A little bit about me:
She/her♀️
Christian ✝️
491 yrs 🕰️
Surinamese (& Blasian)
I am lemon
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<<sorry for the long bio T^T>>

Pfp - lazy art of my persona, I actually do have a paper boat hat thingy
Banner - The Lemonheads Mascot tee-hee, tee-hee

[Also, in the future I might have a YT account. Idk yet, depends on how I'm feeling about it but we'll see. Or not]

Well, that’s the end of it ! Toodle-loo fellas !! See ya never !

Jesus loves you guys !!
God Bless!! !! ♥️

"As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love," --John 15:9

"ɪ ʟɪᴠᴇ ᴍʏ ʟɪꜰᴇ ɢᴜɪᴅᴇᴅ ʙʏ ɢᴏᴅ’ꜱ ɢʀᴀᴄᴇ & ᴛʜᴇ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴏꜰ ᴊᴇꜱᴜꜱ ᴄʜʀɪꜱᴛ. ᴍʏ ꜰᴀɪᴛʜ ɪꜱ ᴛʜᴇ ꜰᴏᴜɴᴅᴀᴛɪᴏɴ ᴏꜰ ᴡʜᴏ ɪ ᴀᴍ, ʀᴇᴍɪɴᴅɪɴɢ ᴍᴇ ᴅᴀɪʟʏ ᴛᴏ ᴡᴀʟᴋ ɪɴ ᴋɪɴᴅɴᴇꜱꜱ, ʜᴜᴍɪʟɪᴛʏ, & ꜱᴛʀᴇɴɢᴛʜ. ᴛʜʀᴏᴜɢʜ ᴇᴠᴇʀʏ ᴄʜᴀʟʟᴇɴɢᴇ, ɪ ᴛʀᴜꜱᴛ ɪɴ ɢᴏᴅ’ꜱ ᴘʟᴀɴ & ʟᴇᴀɴ ᴏɴ ᴛʜᴇ ʜᴏᴘᴇ & ꜱᴀʟᴠᴀᴛɪᴏɴ ꜰᴏᴜɴᴅ ɪɴ ᴊᴇꜱᴜꜱ. ᴍʏ ᴘᴜʀᴘᴏꜱᴇ ɪꜱ ᴛᴏ ʀᴇꜰʟᴇᴄᴛ ʜɪꜱ ʟɪɢʜᴛ ɪɴ ᴀʟʟ ɪ ᴅᴏ & ꜱʜᴀʀᴇ ʜɪꜱ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴏᴛʜᴇʀꜱ." ɪ ᴀꜱᴋᴇᴅ ᴊᴇꜱᴜꜱ "ʜᴏᴡ ᴍᴜᴄʜ ᴅᴏ ʏᴏᴜ ᴄᴀʀᴇ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴍᴇ?" ᴊᴇꜱᴜꜱ ʀᴇᴘʟɪᴇᴅ, "ᴛʜɪꜱ ᴍᴜᴄʜ." & ꜱᴛʀᴇᴛᴄʜᴇᴅ ʜɪꜱ ᴀʀᴍꜱ ᴏɴ ᴛʜᴇ ᴄʀᴏꜱꜱ & ᴅɪᴇᴅ ꜰᴏʀ ᴍᴇ. ɪꜰ ʏᴏᴜ ʙᴇʟɪᴇᴠᴇ ɪɴ ɢᴏᴅ & ᴊᴇꜱᴜꜱ. ᴘᴜᴛ ᴛʜɪꜱ ᴏɴ ʏᴏᴜʀ ᴘʀᴏꜰɪʟᴇ, ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ ɪɢɴᴏʀᴇ ᴛʜɪꜱ. ʙᴇᴄᴀᴜꜱᴇ ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ʙɪʙʟᴇ ɪᴛ ꜱᴀʏꜱ ɪꜰ ʏᴏᴜ ᴅᴇɴʏ ʜɪᴍ, ʜᴇ ᴡɪʟʟ ᴅᴇɴʏ ʏᴏᴜ ᴀᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ɢᴀᴛᴇꜱ ᴏꜰ ʜᴇᴀᴠᴇɴ. ᴛʜɪꜱ ɪꜱ ᴛʜᴇ ꜱɪᴍᴘʟᴇꜱᴛ ᴛᴇꜱᴛ: ɪꜰ ʏᴏᴜ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ɢᴏᴅ & ᴊᴇꜱᴜꜱ & ᴀʀᴇ ɴᴏᴛ ᴀꜱʜᴀᴍᴇᴅ ᴏꜰ ɪᴛ, ᴄᴏᴘʏ ᴛʜɪꜱ, ᴘᴜᴛ ɪᴛ ᴏɴ ʏᴏᴜʀ ᴘʀᴏꜰɪʟᴇ. ɢᴏᴅ, ᴊᴇꜱᴜꜱ, & ʜᴇᴀᴠᴇɴ ᴡɪʟʟ ꜱᴍɪʟᴇ ᴜᴘᴏɴ ʏᴏᴜ...