Thank you so much for this, this means a whole bunch to me
I pray you have a wonderful day and may god hold you in his arms <3

idk why da kid does this but the kid just does this

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Damn I lose my mind when I'm with her.

I ruined 2 relationships in a day, what else could I possibly lose?
On god I need someone, I need something, I'm getting tired of the same day, same argument, same stuff..

I don't know if I like you like a best friend, or a lover, its mixing up.

It was never you baby, it was me

I wish you knew how much you meant to me, I'd actually kill myself for you, please, dont give up on me and on life, thats my 1 suggestion..

My dear best friend [ratatouille], (her nick name)
I know we talked a lot, I know we were the duos who wouldent leave each other, but.. I never saw that I caused the drama, Im sorry I made you otherthink, Im sorry I was annoying, I'm sorry I was making your life hard, its better if we dont talk since I make it worse. Maybe mom was right.. we shouldent talk.. I love you with all my heart but something in my heart is unsure.. I understand if you want me back or hate me, I was never good at explaining, I mix my words up, I wasnt lying.. I wasnt trying to. I hope you understand you'll be in my heart always and always.
Your dear ex-best friend.. now.. [Emma]. (was my nickname)

Im getting sick of all the drama.. all the hate, all the misunderstanding.. I just want to be heard, and it hurts to know that no one would listen to me.

respectfully, Im gettin sick, not of health, no no no, I mean of people, like, you don't know the drama of what everyone been doin to me but its getting sickening, tiring too, and I'm getting sick of drama, IM GETTING SICK TO KNOW MY WORTH, MY PURPOSE, what.. what am I suppose to do..

Im done being sick <3 thank god

IM SICK YALL.. This WILL affect my drawing and posting

I was never trying to hurt anyone. And yet, I got hurt myself.
I don't care if you hurt me mentally, I'll just stop talking to you, I'll only care if you hurt me physically.

I never make these types of posts but I need to share.
There has been lots of drama and struggles and, pain and all and its, its been hitting me, SO, BAD.. and like it wont affect my posting but like, gosh dang it hurts to see everything just.. ..
gone and.. depressing, like I'm not depressed, but this whole problem that I am having is making me more and more depressed and I don't know how much I can handle it, so I would ask for prayer if you don't mind or just a simple '' help her '' will be amazing for me. You have yourself a good now now.

I've tried doing everything I can but ended up losing everything.

Your like an angel, who doesnt see it yet, your like an angel, who doesnt belive it quite yet, when the world is falling apart, you see yourself at the start, all over again, but I tell you, your like an angel.

I messed up, I failed, I really thought I had it.. Its my fault I did that- I said that, Its gonna be me who makes it worse, don't I. I'm trying my best to keep everything together, but it's hard, and I'm sorry I messed things up for me and you, I just want you to know that
I fake a smile because its easier than explaining myself.. I'm sorry.

There is this boy that goes to school with me, and, yeah, I like him but.. Do I.. is this just a phase type.. And does he like me, he's kind, he's loyal, but there is just things I cannot say to him, like if he actually likes me or not, I can see how he likes me but he needs to see how I like him, his appearance doesn't matter to me, but he wants to change. I make myself confused. And I don't know if I'm ready..

I've done nothing but try, I've done nothing but give, I've done nothing wrong.. I've only been doing what I have been told to do and speak when spoken to, I follow all the rules, I don't push the limit, yet they still say 'I'm the problem', and yet.. someway, somehow, I believe them.

I need is you, only you, I don't need anyone else right now, just you, I've been walking further away from you and I haven't talked to you, but now I need you back, I have realized what I have been doing and I realize all I need is to trust in you.