hits my head to a wall i just wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die

IM GOING FUCKIN INSANE HAHAHA WOW JUST END MY LIFE ALREADY FUCKIN GET A SHOTGUN AND SHOOT ALL MY FUCKIN BRAINS OUT! JUST FUCKIN DO IT U BITCH HAHAHA JUST FUCKIN DO IT puts the gun in my mouth THIS IS MORE FUCKIN FUN :D HAHA

FOR PEOPLE WHO DON'T KNOW I AM PANSEXUAL AND POLY! (Poly means u date more then one person but u love them all the same) :D

For people who don't know I am Jade (freakyjade) :D so for all my friends who see this HEWWOOOOOO I MADE THIS SO I CAN JOIN ART JAMS

Ha Nice Joke man now i feel fat and don't eat

I'm not in danger... I'm the danger...

My music will tell you more about me then I ever will...

They tell you to be urself but then they judge you...

I fuckin needed u but u fuckin leaved me instead...

We can't force people to choose us, no matter how much we want them...

Trust me you don't want wanna feel what I feel...

tbh i might just quit... idk tho...

Fuck life. fuck it.. FUCK IT ITS SO FUCKIN STUPID

Looking for someone to love and hold while i cry in there arms...

Worst thing about depressed is that you can't do it anymore and want something to changed but also want to stuffer- Unknown.

When someones says "I HATE YOU" well lucky for you hate myself too...

Congratulations! You've managed to make me feel like a worthless piece of shit again, would you like a award?- unknown.

She swallows her anger, until she is choking, she smothers her pain, in the pillow she's soaking. She doesn't waste her time whining and moping, she doesn't say much about the pain that she's cloaking...

Better off Broken: Feeling so anxious, I step in your office, Hear "How was your week, How do you feel?" Its hard to be honest, All i can think about is shutting back down, What's wrong with me i should be better by now?, You tell me "Be patient" That it'll be worth it, All the suppression, session by session, Pulled to the surface, All of the demons through the years, I've bottled up, But I'm exhausted, and the past is too much, I'm not ready, It's too heavy, why is healing so hard?, and why does numb only feel like my only friend?, cause when i swallow my scars, then i don't have to feel it all again, I'm so tired of tearing the trauma back open, am i better off broken?, I don't wanna breath deep, I'm tired of mindful, when even the smallest things in my life making me spiral, I had no say inherited a hemorrhaged heart, It's so unfair that everyday is this hard, I wanna be normal for so many reasons like I will never have the time that i need for anger and grieving, basic functioning's becoming such a chore, what would I be like if they cared a little more?, I'm not ready, It's too heavy, stop pushing me just let me be empty, why is healing so hard?, and why does numb feel like my only friend?, cause when i swallow my scars, then i don't have to feel it again, I'm so tired of tearing my trauma back open, am i better off broken? cause every 50 minutes a week is not enough for what i need to give me evidence, I'll shake my skeletons, i know you say these thoughts are liars, But I don't want to live this tired, with this very little proof, and everything to lose, I'm scared you're getting sick of me, so tell me honestly, why healing so hard?, and why does numb feel like my only friend?, cause when I swallow my scars, I don't have to feel, why healing so hard?, and why does numb feel like my only friend?, cause when i swallow my scars, then I don't have to feel it all again, I'm so tired of tearing the trauma back open, am I better of broken