Silver_Vanrouge

RAHHH I made a really cool Kaveh background collage thing but on a different device, so i cant post it, im going to kms istg

I should propably do my homework, its due tomorow......
NAH, I think ill do some architecturing

I think im finished

oh yeah, i might not post as much now because my school lowkey blocked magma so

Yeah im totaly working on fish....... what do you mean I abandoned it, I'm most definitely working on the fish drawing.

I'M ALMOST DONE (not really, I just felt better about myself and this drawing when I said that)

I kinda gave up lol

this is what is what I was getting mad about being good at drawing, like, I could've been good at drawing literally ANYTHING and it's fish, no strawberry tart, old books, witches, gods even a door would've been more useful to me (Architecture lol).

Fish
im good at drawing fish.......of all things why fish

Its weird, I don't like it at all when people touch me in any way shape or form, or notice me. But recently I've just really wanted someone to notice that I'm not fine, to notice I've been struggling. However, when someone does though it is rare that they see past my "I'm just tired" or "Oh I nicked myself while cooking/running in the forest" my chest gets really tight and I cant breath, and my heart rate start speeding up. But because I isolate myself to the best of my ability (And the school system) I end up all alone in the moments I need someone, and I know need is a strong word and I think it is okay that I am using it in this context because I am only confident that one person actually cares about me and doesn't have thoughts like "When is he going to stop talking" "Why is he flapping his hands like that?" "Uggggh why did he come to me in this sea of people" and I don't even get to see her that often anymore. I just can't trust people, the amount of thoughts that go through my head when I type a few words is uncountable, and I especially feel anxious posting a large paragraph like this because #1. I might ruin someones day. #2 I don't want to be seen as an attention seeker or a pick me #3 I just don't, I ruin the mood for everything when I type something slightly out of line, the amount of times a I have rushed to delete a message before or after someone saw it because I thought I made it akward or some shit. I think I have social anxiety.......

Credits to the base owner, heh I hate physical touch, like, if you want to touch my shoulder, just don't unless you enjoy getting judo flipped.

I dont know what was going through my head when i made this but im sorta happy with it I guess, though it still eats shi-.

So I drew this and about 20 other things , quite a bit ago, so art styles may vary (I have not posted the others yet. I have them all in a Google slide)