Ender ❤Mc💚(greaving badly)

Everyone I have to say my Chromebook gets taken up today so sorry guys I love you all as you are though byeeee

should I quit or keep going on this?

I blame myself...

im sorry that I seem like I'm mad at yall but I'm not I'm just going through something that I wont say because something bad bad happened and it affected many of my friends and we are just trying to deal with it but I am breaking and the more I go on the more horrible I feel. I tried to help but now I can't and I feel like i'm the blame. and I have been dealing with that for most of my life since I was nine and years on to the age I am now and it is a long time for me and the more stuff happens the more I take the blame..

Why is it that when I get so many things in life like followers views or even comments the more I post the less they come I may be a younger artist but I still work hard come home do chores get back on here and work more I work and I work and I work and I work and all I get is gratitude from my friends which I love but I'm tired of people being so misunderstood. I've been going through some tough sh and all I get is ignored or your friends liked this the moment I work for hours and hours on my drawling's it gets 8 views but something I worked 20 to 30 minutes on gets 86 views this world is messed the Fed up and I tried and tried to get people to understand but this doesn't look like I'm being understood because people look laugh maybe comment something and then leave that's all I get that all I GET for working and working and working for hours and hours and hours to make y'all happy that's all I get really. I keep getting told "it will work out give it time" I am a young artist with 3 maybe 5 years of experience and that sucks to be misunderstood my the people who you want to see this art "you want to be famous right right well to bad you wont get that way you will never be understood people will always see you as a beginner they will see you as a useless piece of trash" that's what goes through my mind everyday and I'm tired of people looking at me saying I'm fine saying I'm okay. IM NOT Fing OK OKAY I'M NOT I AM TRYING TO GET PEOPLE TO SEE WHAT I CAN DO BUT ITS NEVER ENOUGH IT WILL NEVER BE ENOUGH WILL IT.do you know how tired that makes me I'm on the very edge of my mind and I'm close to slipping off and i'm not okay I'm not I'm really not but everyone else seems to think that I'm okay.so I'm sorry if you want to be angry at me but I'm saying the truth I'm saying how I feel and if you don't like it then comment that you don't like the truth tell me how you feel about me expressing my emotions for one tell me just tell me yell at me tell me I'm a failure I don't care anymore i wanna quit so bad but I have people that actually look forward to my work and that all I need. So just for once look at someones art and tell them they did good direct them on where they missed some details in a helping way. don't hate on people cause that's all people know how to do and I hate that I really hate that people should learn to be nice be there for people not talk horrible to them.no no no be someone who wants to turn the world around and smile and wave at people