I also don’t want to be nervous about wanting to kiss him before he moves away,, I also want to make sure he is ok with it and like he wants it too,, ughh feelings are scary,, acting on them is scarier,,

I don’t know how to give comfort if I’ve never felt it in my life,, ughh,, also im so stressed to the point of wanting to break in to my parents stash of alcohol but I know that addiction runs in the family,,

Needy but I also feel guilt for feeling it ,,, ughh,, so I just hideee

I feel so much like an annoyance to my school friends,, like if I didn’t have autism I would be so great at being people’s friend and not budding in at terrible times

I want to cry whenever I talk to my mom

Yo who is the secret third person seeing my vents,,

Yo lowk what can make my hypersexual thoughts go away bro

Can we not talk about self harm in a public non venting channel thanks,, genuinely trying to convince my brain not to release,, I need them to stop talking about how good it feels,, ughh,,

the guilt of being distant and tired is so strong ughh

Highkey it’s been a loop of come home, cry, try not to relapse, distract myself, and fall asleep really early,,

I did it yayyy!! I can use this as a reference to know what I want to talk about in therapy

Also finally home alone so I can cry now

Highkey scared if I’m gonna scare my therapist away when I talk to her ouhh

I tried to cry and I sneezed?? What,, I try again and it happened again??

Who got a steam roller to roll all of my stress outtt

Yo can my mom not guilt trip me when i say i do not have the energy to speak or have a conversation,, or someone talking to me

A nice cry,, and some comfort food 🧐🧐 mayb,, and like a calm video

Date idea where we just sit in silence and enjoy each others presence doing the things we love and holding each other,, hahaha this is not projecting from a fic at all

Getmeputofmyskin

I just want to cry,, but my family won’t let me,, and my body won’t let me,,