☆"And I guess I'll just miss him, even though he isn't even really gone."☆

hello Kai.

DNI: trump supporters, Felony Martinez fans, pedos, zoos, MAPS, fake alter humans, AI supporters, qwel or rox supporters, homophobes, transphobes, ICE supporters, racists, anti-feminists, anti-medication, anti-equality, christians

!BOUNDRIES!
-do NOT talk about religion to me, do not ask for any personal info, do not ask for face/voice/anything reveal, I DO NOT DO COMMISIONS FOR ANYONE DO NOT ASK!, do not mention the government, no bullying, no hate of any kind, IF I SAY NO TO SOMETHING DO NOT DO IT-

certified therapist friend

"Little Mister never the one, just the placeholder.”

Vent account.

If you need it please don’t be afraid to reach out for help to someone who cares. There will always be people who will miss you. I’m proud of you for getting through it and things will always get better you just need to to stay <3

“You always went looking for an easy way out
Leave the pain you can't solve with the folks you let down
Like the world just restarts, like the clock just resets
Like we all just move on, like we all just forget
And you tell yourself lies, and disguise them as facts
It'll hurt half as much if you drive twice as fast
Just when you think that the road's straight ahead
Is when the devil shows up on your dashboard again
Look at you go, crossin' state lines with your shadow
Tryna run away
Change your zipcode
Turns out that you're still an asshole.
It ain't our fault that you aren't
Suddenly somebody else 'cause you worked on yourself“

I GOT THAT DAWG IN MEE/hj

ᴛʀᴀɴꜱ ᴘᴜᴘᴘʏ/ᴋɪᴛᴛʏ ʙᴏʏ ✮ ᴀꜱᴇxᴜᴀʟ ✮ ᴏᴍɴɪꜱᴇxᴜᴀʟ (ᴠᴇʀʏ ʜᴇᴀᴠʏ ᴍᴀꜱᴄᴜʟɪɴᴇ ᴘʀᴇꜰ) ✮ ʜᴇ/ᴛʜᴇʏ/ᴘᴜᴘ/ᴋɪᴛ/ɪᴛ ✮ ʜʏᴘᴇʀ-ʀᴏᴍᴀɴᴛɪᴄ ✮ ᴀᴍʙɪᴠᴇʀᴛ ✮ ʏᴜᴍᴇꜱʜɪᴘᴘᴇʀ ✮ ꜱᴘɪʀɪᴛᴜᴀʟ ᴄᴀᴍʙɪᴛʜᴇʀɪᴀɴ ✮ ᴀʀᴛɪꜱᴛ ✮ ᴀᴛʜɪᴇꜱᴛ ✮ ʜɪꜱᴛᴏʀʏ ꜱᴛᴀɴ ✮ ᴀɴᴀʟᴏɢ ʜᴏʀʀᴏʀ ᴇɴᴛʜᴜꜱɪᴀꜱᴛ ✮ ʏᴀɴᴅᴇʀᴇ ✮ ᴀɴᴛɪᴛʜᴇɪꜱᴛ ✮ ꜱɪɴɢʟᴇ (ʙᴜᴛ ɴᴏᴛ ʀᴇᴀʟʟʏ)

|Preferred Names|
-Lee, Salem and Jude-

•Style•
-a mix of funky grunge, whimsy goth, whimsy twee and whimsy boho-

✮IRL besties✮
-Kai, Alex, Nick, Brynn S., Zoey E-
(ILY ALL SM!! ><)

>Interests<
^Drawing, reading, sleeping, thrifting, making Kandi^

/Heart-Types ~Golden Retriever (dark gold) And border collie (black-Tri color) black cat Bernese mountain dog~

-Likes-
~Puppy treatment (not sexual. Forehead kisses, head pats/ scratches, playing, pet names, come here pup!, good boy, Nuh uh!), Hugs!, handholding, Cuddling, the nicknames pup, juju, bubs and baby boy~

<Prounoun Example!>
/Pup/Pupself: Oh yeah Salem? Pup went to the store to pick up some pencils for pupself! |It/Its: Lee likes to dress alternative but it doesn’t know what its exact style is called.|
-# kit/kits: Jude loves kits tail but kit loves getting to go to theater class more.#-

{Book info}
[It's a Gorey cult/religious thriller/cosmic horror] (I don't have much planned yet TvT..)

!Fandoms!
/PJO, HOO, TSATS, COTD, MHA, Monster high, the backrooms, Alterhuman, MCR, PTV, Madoka magica, Hamilton, heathers, caseoh, the Pitt, Sam and Colby
-MAIN fandoms (fandoms I��m currently active in)-
>The Pitt, Arcane, PJO, HOO, TSATS, COTD, Alterhuman, MCR, Heathers, Sam and Colby<

!(ROMANTIC) Yumeships (all hyper sharing)¡
-Kayla Knowles, Thalia grace, Nico Di Angelo, Lou Ellen blackstone, Mina ashido, Bear/Becky, Tiger, ragatha, gangle, Mel king, Dennis Whitaker, Cassie McKay, VI-

-Insecurities-
;My eyes, my mouth (specifically my teeth), my forehead, my face shape, my acne, my chest, my body shape, how long my fingers are, my nails, my neck, my ears, my thighs, how long my legs are, my shoulders, my weight, how clingy I am, how obsessive I am, how jealous I am, how perverted my mind can get, how easily I fall in love, how violent my thoughts can get, my anger issues, my anxiety;

A message for my dear friends: thank you all for being the reason I’m still here. I love you all so much and you mean the absolute world to me you loved and accepted me when no one else did and because of you I’m going to live to the age the thought I would kms at all because of you (I’m talking to you kai UR A BADASS!!)<3

ICEOUT

NOONEISILLEGALONSTOLENLAND

$More on my heart-types$
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Golden retriever: So I had a past life as a house dog with a human kiddo and their parents and now I feel like I act and present very golden retriever-like
Border collie: my owner was an urban explorer :3
Black cat: ???
Bernese: ???
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Vent
I’m so fucking tired. Why do I always come back? They’ve done it 3 times, and I came crawling back every. Single. Time. why can’t I be the one? Why do I always have to be the placeholder while you wait for him to come back? Why do you always get my hopes up then leave? It’s always you need to work on yourself or you don’t love me like I love you. So how do I love? What do I do wrong? Am I too clingy? Is it that fact that I was already hoping we would be together forever because I’m so terrified of being alone and you were the only person I ever wanted a future with? Or is it the fact that I’m obsessive? Just tell me what I did wrong, I can’t sit with the thoughts right now.

I don’t know how to move on. I’ve been head over heels for you for 2 years. I’ve tired to so hard but it always comes back to you, I don’t know why I see you as someone so holy I wish I could see you normally. I’m sorry I fucked up, so so sorry..

You don’t have to lie. I know I’m obsessive, clingy and hopeless. Hell at one point it got so bad I had a vision about bashing your partner at the times face in with a bat in the middle of the night. I’m sorry, I don’t think like that anymore. I try to be good, really I do. I just don’t want to be alone, I want to feel important and loved and like I’m not a complete waste of carbon, and you made me feel that. I guess I’m just frantically looking for that high all the time.

I love you. you know I do, just promise you wont leave me.

I miss the puppy treatment. It actually made me feel good, please don’t stop loving me.

I’m such a damn mess..I’m just sitting here crying my eyes out over Noah kahan and something they left in their magma bio, pathetic.

I'll wait for you Kai, you know I will. please come back. I've been sitting here for 2 years.

I love you buddy. I hope you feel better <3