— Had another really productive conversation with my mother on the way back from my appointment. (The diagnosis is still obviously a work in progress, but we’re getting there!! Cross your fingers!)

I find it so interesting how supportive she is of me and how much she genuinely enjoys Shami’s company. She calls him an asshole but at least he’s entertaining…???

— tell my why I go on TikTok, and discover that my mother has posted a nonchalant ai video of her being arrested. I am SO confused.

— fronted to discover my entire bag of candy is gone AND my stomach hurts… ARG!!!!

— I think people can be far too careless when it comes to cancel culture. I genuinely don’t care who you support, but if there is valid (keyword: valid. Oooo jingle jingle pay attention) and reliable evidence that someone has done something wrong, then I believe it’s important to acknowledge it.

At the same time, I don’t think people should blindly condemn someone simply because they’ve been labeled as “cancelled.” Whenever someone asks me, “You support _?!” my answer is usually yes, because I take the time to research the situation myself before deciding how I feel about it.

That doesn’t mean I’ll excuse harmful behavior. It means I want to understand the full context and look at credible evidence rather than relying on rumors, outrage, or whatever happens to be trending, because… blergh.

Media literacy is important. People deserve to form their own opinions based on information they’ve actually examined, rather than automatically joining a hate train. Anyways, I hope you have a lovely day, dm me if you need someone to talk too!! <3333

— New apothecary diaries season in about an hour. eek eek!!!

— happy national girlfriend day to my amazing partner. ily queen!! @eli 𓍢ִ໋☕️✧˚ ༘ ⋆

— we went out to karaoke in some random casino today. 10/10 do recommend

Venster after ehm,, a gabillion years because I forgot about these two #healing

— should I post some of our art again?

— you are NOT allowed to be on here Shami.

bitches n hoes

— A lot of people have been calling me wise and whimsical lately (I appreciate it btw, teehehehee), and honestly, it’s so fulfilling to see people take my advice to heart and realize how much they’re cared for.)

A lot of my worldviews and perspectives actually come from my mom. I grew up in poverty, and she taught me from a young age to appreciate the little things I had rather than constantly wishing for more. And honestly, look where I am now! Living in Japan and happier than I’ve EVER been. But that’s besides the point.

Here is my mother’s weekly piece of wisdom, which I shall now bestow upon thou: When you see someone whose life seems harder than yours, don’t use their struggles to invalidate your own. You’re still allowed to be sad. You’re still allowed to struggle. Someone else having it worse doesn’t make your feelings any less real or important.

Instead, try thinking this instead, “Wow… they’ve gone through so much, and they’re still finding reasons to keep going and be happy.” Rather than comparing your pain to theirs, try putting yourself in their shoes. Think about what they’ve experienced, what helped them through it, and how they’re able to find happiness despite all of it. Because at the end of the day, your mindset is something you can slowly nurture and grow. That doesn’t mean you can simply choose to never be sad again, life doesn’t work like that. But if you want to work toward happiness, allow yourself time to heal, and make little changes where you can, eventually, things can start to feel different. Trust me, it’s worth it and works.

So don’t downplay yourself just because someone else has it worse. Your feelings matter too.

—sent with love
Scott

—I was called transphobic today because I don’t support alterhumans. We are literally DEVOLVING AS A SPECIES.

First of all, what does that have to do with the trans community? Second, why does my personal opinion even matter to you that much? And third, I genuinely DO NOT CARE what you identify as. Do whatever makes you happy. I’m not going around policing people’s identities, nor do I even pay attention all that much. (As long as I’m respecting you)

I’ve actually been in that specific space myself, and I’ve seen firsthand how toxic it can become. Being involved in those communities has genuinely harmed me, both physically and mentally, so OBVIOUSLY, I’m allowed to have my own feelings about them.

You can identify however you want. I don’t have to support or agree with everything you identify as. That doesn’t automatically make me transphobic?? Again what do alterhumans even have to do with being trans.

Side note: I have friends that are alterhumans. Do I fully agree with them? — no. Do I disrespect them? — Also no. Do I love and care for them as the people (or non people) they are? — yes???

(if any of this information is wrong and I am actually a pos, feel free to explain to me why in my DMs, I’m always open to learning more things.)

— I think people forget that you can miss someone while still knowing they weren’t good for you. You can care about someone and still choose yourself. You can remember the good without forgetting the bad. Feelings aren’t always black and white. You don’t have to hate someone to know you’re better off without them.

— I hope you all have a meaningful Suicide Awareness Month.

Please remember how deeply loved and valued you are. I know that might be incredibly hard to believe sometimes, especially when you’re hurting and everything feels like too much. But remember, you don’t have to carry all of that pain by yourself.

I’ve been in that place before. I know what it feels like to struggle, and I know how difficult it can be to imagine things getting better when you’re already exhausted. I’ve also lost people close to me to suicide, and I wish more than anything that they could have known just how loved they truly were and how much they’re missed.

So if you’re struggling right now, please don’t be afraid to tell someone. You don’t have to explain everything perfectly, and you don’t have to pretend that you’re okay. There are people out here who genuinely want to listen and help you through this, even if you don’t know them yet… like me! I’m always here if you need to talk.

Please stay. Take things one moment at a time. Reach out to someone you trust, whether that’s a friend, family member, teacher, counselor, or someone else who makes you feel safe.

And if you’re in the US, you can call or text 988 to reach the Suicide & Crisis Lifeline. Don’t wait... take that leap of faith, people will be here to catch you. (Feel free to check my past posts for more resources for those in and out of the US.)

You are not a burden. You are not who you where in your worst moments. You deserve kindness, support, and the chance to experience better days. I’m here for you. You are loved by me.

in memorium — to those who’ve been lost,

—and to you, Z. whom I miss more than anything.

remade our prns page ! ! —

https://en.pronouns.page/@ScottE

everyone throw tomatoes at me for being gone so long ! ! —shami

anyways here’s what we’ve been up too—>

Genuinely so sorry for being gone for so long… sigh. Your girl needed a break from all this magma drama or smth. Plus, the US has gone completely to shit and kinda kidnapped my dad, so… there’s that... hehe… #COMEBACKORWHATEVER

ANYWAYS— Japan life has been absolutely amazing. I’m genuinely so much happier here, and I finally feel like I have so much more freedom in my life without someone… holding me down. EEK!!

I’m so, so happy to be back. I really hope all of you are doing amazing and living your lives to the fullest!! — Here’s a message I have for thou:

Please don’t let anyone convince you that you have to sacrifice your happiness, your freedom, or who you are just to keep a relationship alive. Love is not supposed to make you feel trapped. You shouldn’t have to constantly walk on eggshells, change yourself, isolate yourself from the people you love, or feel like you need permission to simply exist as yourself…

And if you’re currently in a relationship that makes you feel that way, please know that it is NOT your fault. you are not asking for too much, and you do not deserve to be treated badly just because someone says they love you babes… You deserve relationships where you feel respected, heard, safe, and free to be yourself.

I know leaving a toxic relationship can be incredibly complicated, and sometimes you genuinely might not be able to leave right away. Please don’t feel ashamed of that either! You don't have to have everything figured out at once. If you’re struggling, please reach out to someone you trust… a friend, family member, teacher, counselor, or a professional support service. (Which is provided bellow per usual)

And if you’re reading this and secretly needed someone to tell you this: you matter, and don’t let anyone put you down for doing what’s right. Please take care of yourself. You are worth protecting. You are worth listening to. And you deserve to be happy, even at times when it feels like you don’t deserve it.

National Domestic Violence Hotline — 1-800-799-SAFE (7233)
—Text START to 88788

-Sent with all my love,
Scott.

❤️❤️❤️

"—Heaven and heaven alone can take your love from me.
‘Cause I’d be a fool to ever leave you, dear.
And a fool I’d never be.
You are my destiny,
You’re more than life to me,
That’s what you are."

Happy disability pride month ! ! 🫰🫰