For Han who I hope I'll see at the concert (mabey) "han I know life feels hard because your being accused of something you didnt do I've been through the same shit and I'm able to relate to your pain in some way or form because I'm not u ever since we meet on here u truly have been my idol and I'm greatful to be friends with u even if I mean nothing 2 u and seem just like any other STAY I asked if anyone has related 2 ur pain and experience bc not a lot of people can relate 2 me not even even my other idols but in a way u do this entire thing or latter or whatever can mean nothing 2 u u might just like it and move on like u do with all my ugly ass art ur likes made me really happy bc u were the only one who ever liked my posts even if u were just being kind it made me so happy I cried that night hoping we could be a real friends to u even if Im younger Ik I've said this before but I only have like 2 real friends and I think of u as my 3rd I laugh and cry seeing ur videos with the others bc of how much fun u guys have like in the vid 'straykids vs helium' (which is my fav) (this might not even be making u feel better but I'm trying) recently I contacted one of the people I thought I called a real friend in elementary we used to date on and off but the last time we broke up he said he just didn't feel like dating any more and told him if he ever needed someone I was here then I emailed him recently just wanting 2 talk bc I've been busy with school and this was his reply 'if she wants to talk fine but tell her I'm taken' he didn't say hi or anything and he called me my she/her pronouns when mine are they/them (my preferd pronouns) I cried that period and just asked him who was the lucky one bc he can't see me behind a computer screen we've been through a lot together and it just seemed like he didn't care abt are relationship anymore he's been through my pain and shit I put him through Han what I'm trying 2 say I'd keep the friends u have close and let them believe what they want bc only ur real friends would know and believe what u say I also kinda made a song 4 u or tried 2 but I kinda suck at making them and still making fan art even though my art is ugly just like me-aylor/tyi
I miss you, Tyi. -Lillian/Jaciee/Anthony