Update.

Quite frankly, school has become a huge drop in overall motivation. I don't really get much time to play with friends and whatnot at home anymore, so I've only ever attempted drawing during classes. But even then, it's been very limited. I can't ever really figure out where to start despite many tutorials and practice. There's been so many instances in which I'll start drawing something I have planned either traditionally or digitally and just end up making look awful and turning it into something completely different that I'm just not proud of at all. Combine that with the fact that my teachers seem to all agree on assigning the worst projects and stuff at the end of the year and you get a conglomerate of constant lack of motivation to pursue much of anything. I don't think I've made a full-blown artwork with colors and a background in over a year. I've mostly diverted my attention to certain other achievements, but even then, it leaves this sorta feeling that I'm just never going to improve. Do other people feel this way, or am I just lazy? Idrk what to do with all of these other concepts I have. Drawing with my friends helped with that, but my school had since blocked this site, essentially nullifying that entire endeavor we had. We tried looking for other sites or using paper, but it just wasn't really the same.

This sucks.