where did all the time go-

it’s been a while

I can’t believe the time has gone so fast, and it’s actually 2026.
It felt like yesterday that I was just joining the magma community and getting to know you all, but it’s in fact been a whole year
Thank you to every single friend i’ve made along the way and all the people i’ve gotten to know/collab with. You’re all so special to me, even if i’m less active now.
But anyways, happy new year to everyone and bring on 2026!! 🥳

Woohoo!
I’ve officially been on magma for a whole year!
Looking back, the time absolutely flew by.
I’m so grateful to have met so many people, made so many friends and had the opportunity to be apart of such an awesome community.
Thank you so so much everyone, you’ve all played a part along the way. ❤️

a bit blurry

first time i’ve been on magma for a few months, here’s a drawing!
made on draw on a base (pigu’s jam)

i sleep now

This is kind of a little sad post,,
you don’t have to read it all

So lately, or for a while now, I haven’t really been on magma at all. I guess I kinda lost interest or just got busy. But I always think back to the end of last year, 2024. When I first became known in pigu’s jam, and when I first made these online friends. I should’ve known, because it always happens. Its happened before.

You shouldn’t make online friends, because you’ll always drift apart.

I know this. But I still make new online friends. I did. All of you guys. I would go to pigu’s jam literally every day, for months, and then March came, and things slowed down, I went 4 times a week, then May followed and I only checked in once every week. and then July went past, I’d only check in once a month.

Slowly I drifted, and so did all the others.
I used to go to Pigu’s jam and would know half of the people there.
I miss the old admins, the old people there.
One of the first close people to me who left was knife.
Knife, the kindest person I had met online, she was so kind. She actually lifted me up. But of course, she left, we don’t know why, but I believed she would return eventually.

Anyways, then mylo had to leave for a long time.
I also met star. We just got along so well. We connected so easily.
But it seems she is gone too, just as soon as mylo returned.

And now I hear that kiyren, someone who I am closest to on here, is leaving. All I can do is think back to the times we spent together.

With all of you. The times that mylo would sing in vc, the times that kiyren would spend 12 hours speaking about twst whilst fighting with his siblings on the side. All the drawings and art, noven. Even luka. All the collabs and sylaps calls. The laughing on that one night with womp and mylo in chat. Plover becoming admin, mo ran’s 1000 big booms. All these moments and many more. They mean so much.

But everything comes to an end. That’s why we’ll never know the value of a moment until it becomes a memory.
And maybe I have to accept that. It’s okay.
thanks for reading ❤️

I loved this jam, thanks to the creator and other people who joined!

Loved working on this jam!! It was so empty at first, but people slowly filled it with awesome art!!

if lana sees this, I hope the towel creature makes more sense

i’m actually so proud of this one help
idk what happened but I locked in so hard
considering this was free also

anyways i feel like my art style is so inconsistent because it literally changes each drawing, like how can I be drawing so badly for one person’s oc and then crack out this for the next lmao

I smashed out 2 free everskies commissions today because I stupidly wanted to draw people’s ocs for free, but then like 9 different people wanted one

anyways here are the 2 I got done today!! :P
I’m so proud because I used no base for once lmao

tiger drawing ❤️

holy moly guys
it feels like I haven’t visited magma in a long time

but the last few days have been crazy
my sister gave birth lol
and uh I also got in a car crash!
but i’m okay
nobody got badly hurt is the main thing

but also, I have 2 week school holidays now! (australia)
so i’m hoping to be on lots more and focus on drawing again
I miss you guys
especially dearest star and kiyren and mylo
its been ages
okay… bye bye now!

so uh, I was thinking… where’s a place I can vent?
and this came to mind.
so I’m just going to spill out some stuff, feel free to vent in the comments if you need to

do you ever get that feeling where you’re just… so exhausted.
like you could cry but you don’t.
like… no matter how hard you try, it’s never going to be enough so you should just quit even trying in the first place.
just when things were starting to seem better… like things were getting normal…
she tells me that it grew back.
i don’t know if i should even believe that because she doesn’t exactly lie lots… but she isn’t ever clear about what she is saying.
anyways, today was good.
i had a netball game, my friend came watched, and we played great, winning by 15 points.
heck- I even got told by my coach that one of the development people think i have potential- and she wants to take me to one of her special training sessions.
but then, we go home, everything still feels normal.
a few hours pass while i come on here and talk with one of my closest friends.
then they go to sleep and i just watch some videos, chilling out. but then he unexpectedly comes home early. and i didn’t know that she had been keeping this from us. until he comes in and sits down, and she walks into the room, announcing that she has something to say.
“I might have to go on IV.”
she had been using tablets which didn’t make her too badly sick, or lose hair.
but intravenous meant that everything could get worse.
she might lose all her hair, get worse sick.
i thought she was finally improving- things were getting better.
it shows just how quickly things can turn.
and of course, it doesn’t help that they were finally going to split for good.
it feels like everyone around me is moving forwards, getting jobs, going out with their friends, they’re happy.
i’m happy for them, but it’s like i’m stuck here.
it’s as if i’ve been given a disadvantage my whole life, why couldn’t it be different?
why me?
thats always the question i come back to.
this feeling sucks, and i don’t like it.
i just wonder, when will it go away?
when can i finally get ahead and be happy like them? will i ever be able to get that in life?
or will i always be stuck?
in a never-ending loop of being controlled and held back.
i can only try.
thats what i always say to others.
“the best thing you can do is try.”
but… i guess it’s common for people to give advice they’ll never take themselves.
…when do I get to stop trying?

I love chiyo

transferred from ibispaint :D

fan art of koharu, the main character of love bullet!
you can see the reference picture on the left, which I heavily relied on

I need to use the blend tool less lol

Might start posting a bit more, I’ve been kind of absent from magma recently, everything just seems off… so heavily different from what it used to be. But it was bound to happen. It has always been bound to happen. I guess people change, people move on, and people leave.

Anyways, heres a song, you should give it a listen.

Everyone looks the same in this town
You can hardly tell the difference
She stayed at home and figured out how
To will herself out of existence
She gave it a try
She closed her eyes
She didn't know how it'd feel
She just hoped that it wouldn't hurt
It almost worked
They lie right to your face in this town
But what did you expect?
She wishes that she could have seen what they saw
That left them so unimpressed
So she gave it a try
She started to cry
She said to herself, "Well, at least it could have been worse"
And it almost worked

Love this song… Love TV Girl…

photo day!! ☆

(random 4 hour night drawing)