I dont know how much longer i can take all this pain. I’ve been feeling it for 4-5 years now. It hurts so bad. These ugly scars on me are ones i created. Ones i caused to make my family cry. I really want to disappear. But at the same time i want to stay. I hate my guts so much. I want to be a different person. I really really want to be someone else. Someone better. I want to be better for friends. Because it seems like im not doing enough. If im gone, you may never know. Love you all.