˚｡ʚvikkyɞ｡˚ [relapse]

btw yall my discord is meowbootz_91065 cuz im not on magma like at all anymore so dm me <333

had my stomach pumped and got an iv love life yall

omw to the hospital cuz js drank bleach love yall

guys the loneliness IS setting in and it will be my death

WAIT I JUST FOUND OUT FEMALE SPIDERS EAT MALE SPIDERS AFTER MATING......FEMINIST SPIDERS WOOOOOO

how r yall doing tonight??? :3

DUDE WHY ARE NONE OF MY FRIENDS ONLINE KILL ME

does any1 wanna ask me questions im boreddd!!

Im back everypony!!<33

well guys!! dad caught me!! im packing my shit rn and heading to the hospital!! see yall when they let me out :P

uh guys....we cut a lil too deep- now we gotta get boyfie to talk me through it-

me and boyfie core :3

@red leather

2nd update!! : WE HAVE HIT ROCK BOTTOM- gonna need stitches if i tell sum1 sooooo........lets hope i get knocked out before i realize this aint good :3

Update!! : talking to boyfie rn and slicing it up!! took some meds too!! I should be fine for a couple hours more!! love yall ill update more soon!!

attempting again tonight! ill be posting updates until i either have to go tell my dad or a just stop posting. if you are worried or need an explanation, i can invite u to a canvas to explain but trying to stop me wont do anything. love yall! Ill update soon!!

goodnight, everypony! ૮꒰˶> ᴗ <˶꒱ა

" but i'm just a dog , sir ! ! "

pet regressor <3

VENT (!!TW: SH, ED, SVICIDE)
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so a couple people have asked why i was gone and where i was so i would like to clear it up. i was in a mental hospital for awhile because of a svicvide attempt that ended horribly. i now have a scar that thankfully was stitched pretty well so its easy to cover. (loved my nurses they were awesome!! and love the doctor who fixed me up and kept scar patches on the wound afterwards <333) Im still not doing well though. I still self-harm in many ways, [cutting, hair pulling, burning, scratching], and my ed has gotten worse. I have bulimia and have had it for about 2 years. im not trying to glorify anything because at this point, im miserable. everything sucks. living feels like hell, eating feels like death, and sleep is my only peace. I hate the people who keep telling me "but [insert name] has it so much worse, so be greatful." Okay? trauma is trauma, stop comparing. i also feel the need to specify i physically cant bring myself to open up to anyone, so please dont say "u can talk to me" or "you need to open up more" last time i did that it got used against me right before being assaulted. being open is a vulnerability, and i cant do it. worst part is, whenever ANYONE makes me feel safe or comfortable, i trauma dump, which is NOT opening up. its a stupid moment of vulnerability that makes it easier for anyone to use it against me. and yeah, this is very self centered, but this is my vent. if you dont wanna read it, dont. Im just so tired. i just need anyone who reads this to know how i feel now just incase i leave again. thanks for you time. love yall <333

anyone wanna come wheeze in a call w me about grandmas and horrible exes???
https://magma.com/d/gBrE5lD9eV

pov: ur listening to rebzyyx eating ice cubes with ur lifesize muffin plushie rotting in ur room, red paint all over ur floor and crying cuz ur being ignored by the one person who promised to stay <33333
(Not glorifying btw.)