My reality in small square

Translated:
Lately, everything has been very sad for me, sometimes I forget that people do not understand the realities I live in, this applies to both my emotional state and my state as a Ukrainian in Ukraine. The war has been going on for four years, how many people have the russians killed in these four years, how many times I thought I would die. There are people who do not believe it, but the russians are hitting ordinary houses with missiles, CONSTANTLY, they also often hit schools and hospitals, even trains, because they want to kill Ukrainians, as before. Around September 30, 2025, a UAV crashed into the building opposite my house, there were several of them, I was at home, I couldn't think about anything except that I would die, and the next shell would fall on my house, and I would die, and it would all be over... That day I got a scar, one of my cats scratched me when I was trying to hold it in a panic, I didn't even feel pain at the time, only later did I see that I had a scratch, also after this attack the art museum was damaged, and in some apartments in my house the glass was broken due to the shock wave from the explosions, I saw a neighbor taking the glass out of the apartment in buckets, I was lucky...
I go to school, 11th grade, my school is partially private, so we study offline (public schools are most often online), during the alarm we go down to the basement, and continue studying there, it's tiring, but everyone is used to it. I speak Ukrainian, although sometimes I switch to russian out of habit, in my class I am the only one who speaks completely Ukrainian, and recently I was humiliated for this by some people from my class in the online group of the class without teachers, I stood up for myself, but it was insulting, I got angry and cried a lot, not all Ukrainians understand why the war started and why it is worth giving up everything russian, it is frustrating, because sometimes it seems that everyone around is idiots and because of this victory seems unattainable.
In winter, the russians attack power plants, because then we have neither hot water nor heating, my apartment often gets light for ~20 hours, my sister's had no light for more than a day, life is more like survival because of the russians.
I would like to tell you more about this, but I don't even know if anyone is reading this, but if you are, thanks you for reading and not remaining indifferent to this information ❤️